Being in the presence

June 4, 2025

Good evening/morning,

” Prayer is not doing but being. It is not words but the beyond-words experience of coming into the presence of something much greater than oneself. ” Katheleen Norris in Amazing Grace: A Vocabulary of Faith. page 350

I have had Norris’ book for a long time but never read it. I guess I have time now. She grew up in the Presbyterian Church, but left it during her university years. She became a poet and a teacher. She and her husband moved to North Dakota later in life, and she returned to faith. She was shaped by the local church of her grandparents, and by the local Benedictine ( Catholic order ) monks and monastery. 


When I had my heart attack, I could not pray nor read the Bible. I cannot remember how long this experience lasted, but I would say at least three months. I invited the Floradale church to do my praying and reading for me. I was trying to recover from the trauma of the heart event and surgery. I needed someone to do it for me. I was trying to exist or to be.  


In the Sermon on the Mount in Matthew 5, Jesus says, ” Ask and it will be given to you “. Pray and you will receive whatever you ask for. I do not know what this means, because we all know we do not get what we ask for. We try to explain it away with this thought and that argument, and any new idea. Maybe it is better to just  “be” in the presence of God. I have been trained for 66 years to ask, and so it  is hard to just ” be”.


I have been blessed by the songs of Taize, and they are all about ‘ being ‘. ” Jesus remember me when you come into your kingdom. ” is one of their songs. It is hard to learn new things especially about prayer. God says to the Psalmist  in Psalm 46, ” Be still and know that I am God. ” I still need to pray for peace in the Middle East. I will try to be in the presence of God for my life. What is your prayer life like ?


Dear Lord, continue to be the voices of peace in our world. AMEN


Fred

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A text for the future

June 3, 2025′

Good afternoon,

About a week ago I invited you to think about a verse, story or a book from the Bible that might guide me in the next week, month or year. Three things have come to me:

Psalm 46     ” Be still and know that I am God. ” verse 10

Psalm 51    ‘ Create in me a clean heart, O God …’  verse 10′

John 13:4-5    ” So, he got up from the meal, took off his outer clothing, and wrapped a towel around his waist. After that he poured water into a basin          and began to wash his disciples’ feet, drying them with the towel that was wrapped around him . “

The first two are about worship. I need to be in the presence of God. These two psalm readings have many songs related to them. The focus is about God, and God alone. I want to sing. Psalm 46, God is speaking through the writer, while Psalm 51 is the writer speaking to God. The passage from John is at the beginning of the final meal, the Last Supper, that Jesus has with his best friends. Only John records this act of service of footwashing done by Jesus. I still want to do acts of service, and be open for people to do acts of service for me. John 13-17 takes place during the Supper. It is the final words Jesus has for his friends. There is great trouble at the table. Judas is there. James and John want to be the best. And Peter does not want his feet washed.

The last time we had footwashing at Poole, there was only myself and one other man who washed feet. All the other men washed hands. More women washed their feet. I think it is dying out as a symbol of service. We are one of few denominations who have been doing it. What should we do ?

I will let you know next Monday of my selection.

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The road of life and faith is filled with light and dark.

Praying for Gaza, for the mothers and fathers of the children. AMEN 

Fred

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no more gopher holes

May 30, 2025,

Good afternoon,

” I plead with Euodia and I plead with Syntchye to be of the same mind…

Philippines 4:2

We do not know anything about the two women mentioned above. There is nothing about them in the book of Acts about when Paul and Barnabas visit there in Philippi. But, Paul has heard that they have a problem with each other. We do not know the issue that seems to be bringing them into conflict. Is it about the nature of Jesus, or the organizing of the community of believers or about food, kosher or not ? We do not know. In today’s world, you should not write about this conflict between two people in public. The letter was meant to be read in public. This would be shameful and embarrassing today. Back then, the first century after the birth of Jesus, I do not know. Maybe this was how things were done.
Now you shame people on the internet. No face or responsibility. On the site, Threads, there is mostly slander and hateful speech. One person says something about a news item, and hundreds of thousands state their opinions. Many are Artificial Intelligence responses. No person in reality. But , here there is no plan for reconciliation or peace. It is all about letting your anger fly off into the abyss of social media. I read only about three responses and then I refused to go down the gopher hole. But it is so depressing .


What is this negative polarizing attitude and speech doing to our collective soul ? Or has this been the norm all along, and social media is highlighting it for all the world to see ? What can we do as the church or individuals ? I hope Euodia and Scyntchye resolved their problem. Glory be to God. May the reconciling words of Jesus always be our guide to relationships. 


May no more children be slaughtered in Gaza. AMEN . 


Fred

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a new verse.

May 26, 2025

Good morning,

MARK 2:1-12

Read it slowly, and twice.

A few days later, when Jesus again entered Capernaum, the people heard that he had come home.  They gathered in such large numbers that there was no room left, not even outside the door, and he preached the word to them.  Some men came, bringing to him a paralyzed man, carried by four of them. Since they could not get him to Jesus because of the crowd, they made an opening in the roof above Jesus by digging through it and then lowered the mat the man was lying on.  When Jesus saw their faith, he said to the paralyzed man, “Son, your sins are forgiven.”

 Now some teachers of the law were sitting there, thinking to themselves,  “Why does this fellow talk like that? He’s blaspheming! Who can forgive sins but God alone?”

 Immediately Jesus knew in his spirit that this was what they were thinking in their hearts, and he said to them, “Why are you thinking these things?  Which is easier: to say to this paralyzed man, ‘Your sins are forgiven,’ or to say, ‘Get up, take your mat and walk’?  But I want you to know that the Son of Man has authority on earth to forgive sins.” So he said to the man,  “I tell you, get up, take your mat and go home.”  He got up, took his mat and walked out in full view of them all. This amazed everyone and they praised God, saying, “We have never seen anything like this!”

Since 2007, the year of my heart attack, this has been my favourite Bible verse. In the last five years, it has faded from my faith story and journey. At first I was the healed man hanging in the middle of the air in the house before Jesus touched him. I am still in need of healing every day, but it is not as intense. So, I need a new set of verses or a book of the Bible. In my life, I have focused on the creation story in Genesis 1, the book of Psalms, Ecclesiastes and Luke at different times. I have needed a different focus over the years of my faith. At one point, the story that shaped my faith was Pilate and Jesus. Their conversation went through my brain often.

So, I need a new beginning. I am retired from ministry. Would you help me think of a new story from a book of the Bible ? Where do you go for inspiration, prayer or action ? Please share with me your ideas. I value your faith, and your insights.  Below is a picture I took near St. Jacobs yesterday morning. Photography, walking, reading, cross stitch are part of my creative relationship with myself and God. Please take a few weeks to think about my request, and offer me words of your faith. I am planning to decide on the week of June 8.

Blessings of shalom and strength for our journey together. GAZA.

Fred

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Worth a thousand words or a picture

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May 23, 2025

We attended a gallery exhibition while we were in Amman, Jordan. It was photographs by Palestinian artist  Raeda Sa’adeh . She lives and works in Jerusalem. Her photographs were large, and of high resolution with everything in clear focus.  There were about ten pieces in the exhibition. The lighting was very bright, and there were large windows, and so you had to look at the photos from different angles to see the whole picture. Maybe this was by design. I tried to get a picture of them, but there was always too much shadow and reflection. Maybe, this was also by design. Artists are always creative.

So, I took some pictures. What do you think? Her photo is called the Narcissist. She is looking down into a reflection of herself. Try to find it. Shirley is now in the piece taking a picture. In the background is the reflection of the window of light. There are other smaller reflections in my picture. What do you see ? How does my photo change the picture and its meaning ?

For me, it is like a story of Jesus. There is always a lot going on. In a miracle story of a feeding of 5000 people, there is Jesus, the disciples, the people being fed, the food, the weather, and the people outside of the picture. In the story of the crucifixion, in all the Gospels, there is so much to report. As you think of the death of Jesus, what picture do you get ? The cross, Peter, Mary, the whip or the crown of thorns ? How would you draw Jesus on the cross ? Faith is so rich and complex, never the same, each and every day. A new picture of Jesus and salvation to reflect on, and act upon in the glorious creation.

AMEN Praying for the guns, the bombs and the death to stop in Gaza.

Fred

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Ugly. Bad. Good

May 21, 2025

Good afternoon,

” For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing.  Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who does it, but it is sin living in me that does it. Romans 7:19-20

I was given a book to read by a friend. The title is ” The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks “. Tissue was taken from Henrietta’s body in 1951. She died of cervical cancer soon after. Scientists had been trying to grow cells outside the body for years, and when they tried to grow Henrietta’s, the cells kept growing and growing. They have been used ever since, in all kinds of medical tests and treatments. There are  billions of her cells all over the world. They are known as HeLa cells. The first doctors never got consent from her family to harvest the tissue from her body. The Lacks family was African-American, and never compensated. Racism was part of the story. There were good people acting badly all over the story.

In the book, there is this story told. Dr. Alexis Carrel invented the heart bypass surgical technique ( I was saved by this in 2007 ). He won the Nobel Prize for this work in 1912 . He was the first to suture together a piece of human tissue and a chicken heart. People thought that this would lead to immortality for all people.  But Carrel did not want immortality for everyone. He wanted… ” to preserve what he saw as the superior white race , which he saw as being polluted by less intelligent and inferior stock, namely the poor, the uneducated and non-white… He would later praise Hitler for his energetic measures he took in that direction.” ( page 59 )

I think we are all infected with this thing called sin. We want to do good, but sometimes we just can’t stop ourselves from doing bad things. The sin of the brokennes gets in the way. Sometimes we say, ” the devil made me do it “, but I believe that is a sinful attitude in itself. We could go down the rabbit hole of theological conspiracy, and try to find where sin entered the world and our lives.  Paul is being so honest here about his own shortcomings or sin. We need to believe in the graciousness of God, so our sin will be smashed to smithereens, and we can get on with changing the world for the better.

GAZA.

Fred

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4 Seconds of Glory

May 20 , 2025

Good afternoon,” There are moments, and it is only a matter of five or six seconds, when you feel the presence of the eternal harmony…a terrible thing is the frightful clearness with which it manifests itself and the rapture with which it fills you. If this state would last more than five seconds the soul could not endure it and would have to disappear. During these five seconds I live a whole existence, and for that I would give my whole life and not think I was paying too dearly. ”   Fyodor Dostoevsky  ( 1821-1881 ) One of my top ten books is Crime and Punishment, by Dostoevsky. It was one of the books that I read that I learned about and reflected on the sin in my life. The book is about a murder by Raskolnikov. Dostoevsky was a Russian writer who was a Christian, so it is not s a surprise that I learned about sin and salvation from him. He is a great storyteller, as well as a theologian. He continues to be read all over the world. Eugene Petersen ( who translated the Bible into the The Message ) read him as a devotional writer. Peterson would put an hour a week in his day book to be intentional about reading Dostoevsky in prayer.
Do you meet God in spurts of four, five or six seconds or do you have mountain top experiences last a day or two or longer ? Moses met God in a burning bush and on a mountain. Elijah met God not in the fire or in the wind or in a earthquake, but in the silence. The Old Testament says no one who has met God and has lived ! Jesus went away to be in silence with God. God met Jesus in the form of a dove. Jesus spoke to God while on the cross . Where have you met God, and was it in passing or was it a whole afternoon ? What was it like, and how do you describe it ?

” I know a man in Christ about fourteen years ago (whether he was in the body I cannot tell, or whether he was out of the body I cannot tell, God knows) who was taken up into the third heaven. And I know the same man (whether in the body or out of the body I cannot tell, God knows), how he was taken up into Paradise and heard words not to be spoken which no man can utter. ”  Second Corinthians 12:2-4This is strange talk by Paul referring to himself in the third person. When we meet God, we talk about it personally. Why do you think he chose to write it in this way ? Is it too dangerous to talk about our experience with God ?
I hope and trust you meet or met God today, in Spirit and in Truth. Praying for Gaza . AMEN

Fred

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500 years

May 20, 2025

Good morning,

” But many who heard the message believed; 

                so the number of men who believed grew to about five thousand. ”  Acts 4:4

On Thursday May 29, there will be a celebration in Zurich, Switzerland commemorating the 500th Anniversary of the beginning of Anabaptism. On January 25, 1525, a group of believers decided to baptize each other as adults in a house in Zurich. Shirley and I led a tour of this history in April. We led it backwards, beginning in the Netherlands ( Menno Simons became a believer later in the 1530’s ), and ending in Zurich. Over the course of two weeks, we went to an Anabaptist historical site every day. There was never another group with us. There was little signage if any at all at the sites. There were no large Anabaptist buildings, so there was little to look at. The history is hidden, or not seen , from the general public.

This is not surprising because the group was being persecuted, and so people were being killed. These public executions probably made people thing twice about being open about their baptism or not going to war. The Mennonite communities in these countries are very small, and there are only a few tours a year from North America , exploring our history, with 2025 being an exception. At this point there are only about 2 million Mennonites/Anabaptists in the world. This is small compared to the 1.4 billion Catholics.

The writer of Acts tells us that Peter and John have just been arrested. He then writes that 5000 ‘men’ have just turned to Jesus. Persecution in Acts leads to new believers. When the Emperor told ( ordered ) everyone to be a Christian in the 300’s, that changed the Church forever, and not in  good ways. The Anabaptist movement has always been small in the world. The largest national churches are in Africa and Asia today. Many of their leaders will be in Zurich for the celebration. These churches are being persecuted. Another Ethiopian Mennonite pastor was killed just last week.

Pray for the churches that are under threat.

Pray for the small church of Catholics in GAZA. AMEN 

Fred

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Food Fight

May 13, 2025

Good morning,

“When he( Judas ) was gone, Jesus said, “Now the Son of Man is glorified and God is glorified in him. If God is glorified in him, God will glorify the Son in himself, and will glorify him at once. “My children, I will be with you only a little longer. You will look for me, and just as I told the Jews, so I tell you now: Where I am going, you cannot come.

“A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.” John 13:31-35

Judas leaves the supper (verse 30 ). Jesus tells him to betray him quickly. Earlier, at the beginning of the supper, there is the strange and healing event about Jesus washing the feet of the disciples. This was not enough to change the mind of Judas. The whole last supper is full of intrigue. There is a power struggle among the disciples, the betrayal by Judas, and Peter getting angry with Jesus about getting his dirty feet washed. It is an uproar. I am surprised there is not a food fight. Remember next time, you take communion, that the first meal was a tough supper of food and conversation.

With all this dissension and controversy, Jesus flips the conversation, ” I am leaving for good, ” he says. You must now love one another as I have loved you. The followers of Jesus had given up everything. As fishermen, they did not have much, but they wanted the kingdom of God. This is what Jesus had promised them. Had they got the wrong message ? Had I got the wrong message, when I was baptized at 17 ? Well, I am still looking for the kingdom of God. It is not under the hundreds of rocks I have looked at ? I have not seen it in the sky. I have glimpsed it sometimes in the eyes of people, and in the colour of the tulips, but I have not seen the whole thing… yet . What about you ? How do we love each other in the midst of a crisis of belief ?

Pray for the kingdom to arrive in GAZA today. AMEN

Fred

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Retired

May 6, 2025

Today was my first Tuesday where I did not head out to Poole Church. I did some chores around the yard, and did some errands in town. I read some books, did the crossword, and I tried to finish my jigsaw puzzle of the Kissing Bridge of West Montrose. I will not bore you everyday with my plans and schedules, but I thought maybe you might want to know. 


During our Anabaptist tour, I reflected on the book of Acts. The book is a travelogue with some of the important events with the early church. The church began in Jerusalem, and then went to all over the known world including Rome. It is one of the longest books in the New Testament, and provides us with a glimpse of the early leaders like Peter, Paul and Jesus’ brother James. After chapter nine, it is mostly about Paul and his interaction with the early churches in Corinth, Philippi and Ephesus among the many cities that he visited, and wrote letters to those communities.


I do not think that Paul intended to write Scripture. He was a good Jewish believer, and so the Law was enough for him. He was a Pharisee, and so was connected to the politics of the synagogue and temple. According to Acts, he often went to a synagogue when he came to a new city. He wrote his letters for encouragement and some admonition. The churches did not always get along with each other. This is why the letters are so good, they are about real issues. And Paul did not announce these letters as Scripture. It took the church over 300 years to announce these letters as God’s word. 


I offer you the trillium flower as a symbol for the church going forward, with God as the perfecter of our faith.

Praying always for Gaza. AMEN.